It's been a few days since I posted... mostly because I was not feeling well...
I keep forgetting that I had, not one, but two Brain Surgeries! When I got out of the hospital, I was so very tired. I wanted to sleep a lot. This week, I haven't been as tired, and haven't taken the time to rest.
It's not like when I got my knee replaced, and the pain and the limitations were constant reminders that I had to rest, heal, slow down. If I did just a little too much, it was painfully obvious. With the brain surgeries, I don't always feel like I am doing too much... but then, I get tired, or queasy, or this or that. And then I need to go through the days past to see where I went wrong. It's all a learning experience, and something you don't think you need to consider - what did I change, or what did I do yesterday that made me feel this way today?
The past 4 days were up and down - not feeling well, just wanted to curl up on the couch for the most part! I guess I need to be reminded that I am still recovering, and that by not resting when I need to rest, I become exhausted and through my system even more out of whack than it already is!
It's hard - because you do feel better overall, and then you forget that you need to pay attention to the limitations your body is telling you it has.
I just finished reading your entire blog. I am (as usual) late to the party because I live in my very small bubble. I cannot begin to find the words to express how I am feeling right now...maybe it's because I am feeling so many different emotions. I am so thankful you spoke up to your doctor and he took the time to listen and investigate your concerns. We have been friends for so long that I take it for granted that you will always be around.
ReplyDeleteI apologize for being in the dark and not being there for you, but I am not surprised by the outpouring of love and support that you have and received. You are an amazing person with such a big heart that is full of love for everyone. I can hardly wait to see what the future holds for you now that this mystery has been resolved.
I love and miss you!
p.s. I really enjoyed reading your blog. I was on an emotional roller coaster throughout the entire process as if I was sitting in the room with your mom and Tree. Please tell the fam I said hello :)
Aw... thanks, Ang!!!! Really means a lot to me! You have been through so much with me over the past many, many years, and I am sorry that I did not email you sooner. You are here now - so that's the most important thing! I can definitely use the love, friendship and support... Miss and love you too my friend!!!!!!!!
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